Baby Ella Rose and The Willow Room Fund

Hi Lovelies,

Those of you that follow me on Twitter will know that 4 weeks ago my beautiful daughter Ella Rose was stillborn.

As I am sure all of you can understand this was absolutely devastating for myself and Pete especially following our miscarriage last June.

Ella was due on the 22nd of July but devastatingly had no heartbeat on 24th of July when we were due to have an induction.

We were admitted to be put into labour on 26th and she was finally born at 7.14am on 27th of July weighing 5 pounds 9 ounces with a mass of jet black hair. Our sleeping angel was the most beautiful and precious thing we have ever seen and we are so proud to be her parents.

In Ella’s memory we wanted to raise money for the special room based at Haywards Heath’s Princess Royal Hospital. The Willow Room is a special room that is purely for parents expecting a sleeping baby. When you arrive at the hospital you are given this private room which is much like a private hotel room it has a bed for both parents, TV, fridge, shower room etc 

The room is there too ensure that at the most heartbreaking time of a parents life they do not have to be on a ward with new mothers and babies.

With the use of this room the process is much less traumatic as your doctors and midwives see you in there, you start your labour in there and only move to the delivery suite when you require heavy drugs or birth is imminent.

If it wasn’t for the use of this room myself and my partner would have found the process much more upsetting and traumatic.

As the Willow Room is run purely on donations we thought this was the best way to honor our little girl and to ensure that other parents going through this heartbreak would benefit.

If you feel you would like to donate please visit:

Saying our final farewell –  Infinity Photographic

Ella was laid to rest on 5th August at a very beautiful ceremony in Brighton attended by very close family, friends and My Midwife. Although this has to be the most heartbreaking thing I have ever endured I know that she would not want me to be consumed by anger and I plan on making her very proud. Due to our experiences in the last 18 months I have decided I would like to do a degree in Midwifery and start this journey next month by doing an access course. I want my experiences to help other women in my position and if that is only 1 woman and her family then my job is done.

I would like to take this time to thank those of you who have reached out via Twitter and Facebook your messages really did help.



  1. Sarah Anguish 31st August 2015 / 5:44 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I can see why you want to support this beautiful room for parents, I hope you manage to gather lots of donations xox

  2. Leesha Starr 31st August 2015 / 6:41 PM

    I'm sorry for your loss, she'll forever be in your heart. x

  3. beautyqueenuk 1st September 2015 / 11:00 AM

    I have no words hunnie, I am truly sorry for your loss and know there are no words I can possibly say that can make you feel any better. But reading this post has made me feel proud of how you plan to honour her memory and the degree in midwifery is just amazing x

  4. Ickle Pickle 2nd September 2015 / 8:22 PM

    Oh my goodness – I don't know what to say – how absolutely horrific for you. I seriously cannot imagine anything worse. I am so very, very sorry . The room sounds amazing and I wish you every good luck for it. Kaz x

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